My stress level was at an all time high, but I learned to keep focused on my belief that all this hard work would take my family and I to an amazing new place.
2018 is that place and it feels like this will be the year where we will finally be able to take a deep breath as a family and enjoy life.
Last night, we went to a trampoline park that had "ninja course". Our little Jerry came home to us last year. He is a fighter who is always trying to prove that he is strong and belongs in our family. He can be oppositional and argumentative always fighting to be heard. Parenting him can be so tricky, like walking on a balance beam. On one side, we have to teach him to self-regulate his emotions while being respectful to those around him. On the other, his strength is his persistence and determination. Parenting him is a constant balance, which is pretty hard!
However, there are moments where you see his shear determination in action! Last night, on the rock wall, we saw this side of him and were so proud. Nothing is going to stop Jerry! He is so determined and we know that despite his background and the trauma he has endured as a result of foster care, he is going to do amazing things!
I took a moment to block out the world and just watch Jerry take on the rock wall and I am so glad that I did.